Hey D,
i know i piss you off so much, and i'm sorry. i know you still upset, when you overthink and you analize, yes i been so bad dude. i'm sorry, honestly sometimes my mind try to play some games for start to think bad things abouts us so i don't get sad or crazy bc we don't speak at all.
probably u don't want to talk to me, but i just wanted to tell you that i miss you, and i hope you are doing well.
i'm sorry for everything, i know i'm not the best person, i know i'm not the best boyfriend, i know i'm not the best friend, i know i'm not the best anything, but i'm trying to be better, i'm trying to be the best for you, i'm trying to be the best for me.
maybe sometimes my retardness stuffs can't control, or just wanna send everything to the hell. but when i have time to thing ab us, ab you, ab me, how we fall in love, at least how i fall in love of you for me was crazy. and just the idea to lose you, makes me feel so bad, so sad, so empty.
i'm not gonna bother u any more with msgs, i know u don't wanna talk or see me. and always gonna choose your happiness over me, over what i want, over what i feel, over everything. probably sometimes u don't feel that i'm doing that, but i'm trying to do that every single day.
today i was thinking the day after some fourlokos with u at the bay, i start to talk with u ab my fears, what i want. and u give me an answer that i always gonna keep in my hearth, and how u look at me. bc one of the things that makes me fall in love of u, was how u look at me.
just sometimes i miss so much that, you don't have idea, but doesn't mean that i don't love us now. actually i love every single moment that we have. our way to be together, our talks, our laughs, our cries, our hashes, our kisses, our everything. our cafechitos, our movies, our little things that makes me know that i'm with the love of my life.
i know you are mad for my bad side, and i'm sorry for that. i'm just trying to be better.
i always gonna remember our happiest moments. you always gonna be the love of my life
my person in this world.
just i wanted to tell you that i love you, and i'm sorry for everything, i'm sorry for being so bad, i'm sorry
i'm sorry.
With love,
F.
