hey D,
i shouldn’t write, but i can’t shut off my thoughts. i miss you so much.
i really hope you're happier every day. i don’t know why you decided to stop talking to me forever. but my birthday is coming, and all the memories from last year are flooding my mind. i hold that day as the best birthday of my life. i’ll keep that day in my memories forever.
i can still hear your laugh, still hear the times you screamed how much you loved me, still hear the breath of our bodies as we slept. sometimes i dream about us. sometimes i wish i could go back in time and avoid all the mistakes i made.
i really hope you’re doing well, and i hope that one day you can forgive me. you don’t have to tell me, but i hope that someday you won’t hate me or feel disgusted by me.
i’ll always love you. i’m still trying every day to be a better person, to work, to fix things. i still think about you every day and about all the things i need to do. i’m learning a lot about myself every day, and i keep trying to grow and fix things.
i don’t text you because i know you don’t want me in your life—you told me so.
i’m not mad at you anymore. i just wish you happiness and so much love. i really hope the person you’re with now is giving you all the love, attention, and affection you deserve.
i hope you’re getting closer to your purpose or finding answers to all the doubts you had about life. keep pushing, puppy, because you’re smart enough to be wherever you want to be. you’re smarter than me and so many others—just don’t put limits on yourself.
i love you with all my heart, my soul, and everything i have. i love you like i’ll never love anyone else.
i’ll love you till my last breath.
i promise 🤜
with love,
F
Published on 27/11/2024