Hey Puppy, I know we've had some tough days. But I want you to know that I truly believe in you. I truly believe that you will succeed. I want to write it down because when that happens, I want you to read this and say, “what a retard” haha.
Do you know that I love you a little more every day? Do you know that you make me happy every time we talk? Do you know that every call after not talking for a while makes me as nervous as when we first spoke? Do you know that when you say something nice, you make me smile on the phone?
And most importantly, Do you know that I believe in you? That I think you'll do amazing things? That one day all those demons that torment you will go away? I know it will happen because nothing bad lasts forever. When you're at rock bottom, the only thing that happens is you bounce back, you know? So what do you lose by putting in a little effort? Nothing. Just try. Life is about trying and failing. You're a very smart girl, and when we met, that's what made me fall in love with you, you know? When I heard you talk, I knew you weren't like everyone else. I knew you were completely different, and your eyes said it all. I've always told you this, and I won't get tired of repeating it until my last day in this world.
I know some things create insecurity, don't offer a clear future, or we simply create monsters that torment us to see a future. Or if you see it, you just don't want to go after it. But let me tell you something, the future can be as beautiful as it can be ugly, you know? But guess what? Nobody knows that. We can only take small actions day by day that can lead us to a place we want to be.
It's normal to feel overwhelmed, not wanting to move forward. I felt like that for a long time and created many monsters because of it. I created false worlds in my head. That's why the anger existed.
But Puppy, I want you to know that I believe in you, just like your family does, and many people around you. I believe in you; I believe in your ability to face the bad. Just don't run away. You will be everything you set out to be. Don't be overwhelmed by comparisons, don't be overwhelmed by the number of steps, don't create barriers for yourself. Because that holds you back, and I know it, but you're incredible, D. You're someone who has a purpose in this life, I can't tell you what it is, but I know you have it because if you didn't, I wouldn't insist so much that you go for it.
I love you more and more every day, and I feel many beautiful things for you, and that will always happen to me. Because I met you and only want you. I don't want other women; other women aren't worth it. You know why? Because none of them are you. None of them are my Puppy, none are my Pretty D. Simply, none of them are you.
I love you so much that I can't find the words to express it, but I want to show you so that it's more than just words.
Be strong; I believe in you. You'll always have me, no matter what happens to us. You'll always have me.
I promise.
I promise my Bubu.
With love,
F.
Published on 17/08/2023