Hey D,
I know I can sometimes be a storm of jealousy and repetition, but it's only because I'm utterly enchanted by you. I'm keenly aware of the mistakes I've made, and every day my fear grows that I might lose you even more.
I know you love me, even when I drive you up the wall. But the love I hold for you is so immense that it's almost inconceivable how much I miss you every day. Each day without you feels like eternal torment, a never-ending cycle of yearning to hold you, touch you, and simply feel your presence. The absence feeds my anxiety and fears.
Yet, I'm certain that when we're together again, everything will be perfect. I just need to feel you close.
Every day my love for you grows stronger. Every time I hear your voice, it's like a warm embrace to my soul. Hearing you laugh, hearing you breathe, fills me with a soothing sense of well-being. I apologize for being a wreck at times; my impulses and emotions sometimes get the better of me. But as you know, I'm working on being a better man—for me, for you, for us.
Because I miss singing along with you, listening to music as we journey somewhere. I miss your gentle scolding when I've done or said something foolish. I miss our kisses and HASHES. I miss 'us.'
I miss the times when I was stressed, lost, or directionless, and you'd always notice and come to my aid, holding my hand tightly. I know we've been through a lot, and I've also let you go. I know it may sound like I blame you sometimes, but that's really just my own self-directed anger and irrational ego talking.
With you, I can't continue down the path I was on. I want to walk on a path paved with joy, filled with our kisses and embraces—a path where only we understand the hidden meanings behind our glances and kisses.
You are the love of my life, and I miss you every minute, every second of the day.
I think about you every second.
With love,
F.
Published on 31/08/2023