Hey, Mi nena,

You know I love you so much, and I think you're going through your days of anger, trying to process what happened to us in a matter of hours.

I believe our emotions, egos, and frustrations have gotten the best of us.

First and foremost, I want to apologize to you. I'm sorry for being grumpy, for not being able to calm down, reflect, analyze, and apologize. It takes me a while to come back to my senses. My love is still here; it loves you even more. It just tends to get defensive, perhaps feeling falsely unloved and trying to protect itself. This doesn't excuse the things I said, which I shouldn't have said, but I said them because I was hurt.

I've already told you everything that hurt me, and although I know it took a while, you said sorry, and I appreciate it a lot. That's why today I was able to be calm and try to mend my mistakes that I didn't acknowledge before or that we couldn't express, or simply talk about.

All I wanted from you was to talk. I don't want the grumpy Fede with big anger anymore. That's why what happened hurt me so much; it hurt me a lot. And then I defended myself, in anger, unable to believe that we weren't eating together in the place I had been looking forward to, to hold your hand. It gave me so much sadness and anger that my emotions went to hell.

Today, I'm lost without you because I need to hear your voice; I need to hash you. The apartment feels empty without you, without your late-night calls, without your messages, without puppy showers. I miss you a lot because, at the end of the day, after all the anger we've had, we're alone, without each other.

For better or worse. God will know.

What I do know is that I love you very much, and every day I try to be a better person for you. Maybe, yes, I have my days when I get too frustrated and can't express myself properly, or I see that you're not expressing yourself with me, and that makes me desperate. Because in the end, all I want is to love you and make you feel loved.

I love you so much, Pretty D, and I know you know that. I know you're very, very sad and angry right now, but I know you know that I love you like crazy and that I'll never get you out of my mind.

I'm sorry for the fine, I'm sorry for taking down the blog, I'm sorry for removing the contract. These are things that make me angry because the contract is important to me, knowing that we're in a project together, and you've never signed it. In any case, it served me to modify it in your favor; no one can take that contract away from you; you just have to make it a reality for it to be real. Because in the end, my dreams always have you; when I go to the camita at the end of the day, I look for you, I check my phone in case I find a message from you. It's always you.

I love you, and I will always love you.

I hope I can hash you again.

Hamburgechita bubu and dudu.

With love,

Published on 25/10/2023