This feels like we never happened.
Idk what else i can do for stop to think about you. It’s already a lot of time since we talk for last time, since you decided stop to talk me. I guess you’re happy, I guess this is what you want.
I’m not mad with you, I’m glad that you could find peace after a lot of time.
Was the first time in my life that i felt in love for someone, I couldn’t control myself, I’m used to lose everything that I love, so at the begging I thought that was gonna happen fast. You show me you wanted to stay, so with the time I guarantee that you would never leave me because you were so in love.
But I was wrong, you just were in love as an idea of who i was. That was my fault, and I’m sorry.
I really miss you every single day, I don’t know if you still in love of me, if you think about me.
I hope everyday you are doing good and not feeling low, I know you are more stronger than me and that was always that admire from you always. I hope you are doing what makes you happy. Meeting the world, meeting people, having new experiences like you always wanted. I'm truly happy if you are happy.
Me I’m doing my best everyday for be better person. I’m sorry for struggle so much next to you, everyday I wish be able to go back in time and change so many stuffs about me. I’m sorry for not being honest for so long with you. For not be able to open 100%, you know what? I always was afraid that you leave me and I fucked up 100 times more bc of that, at the end you leave. So wasn’t worth it anything.
Thanks for be next to me all the time you could. I miss our cafechitos, our walkies, our things. I know we had a lot of bad things, but also we had a lot of nice memories we built. I keep those ones, for the rest of my life. Tbh is pretty bored go to new cafechitos and can't share it with you. I got a new coffee machine that is red.
I’m not writing so much here because I let you go, I respected your decision, I didn’t want you to suffer anymore with me. My last act of love that I could do is let you go. Seems pretty hard, maybe I shouldn’t be writing here.
My promises still there, I’m not gonna break them. Hope to find you in another life, and make things work better.
See you around.
With love, F
P.S: I’ll love you till my last breath. I promise pandi. Bubu&Dudu still in my search.
Published on 15/01/2025