Today I decided to watch our memories after so long. Be in this space that we shared so much, our camita. I swear kills me. Everything still smelling like us.
I didn’t cry in a long time, today i did. I couldn’t stand up or pretend that i was doing great, i try to avoid feelings. But i can’t.
I’m so fucking sorry, this doesn’t have any meaning for you, i know. I know you are cold, you are away, you don’t wanna know anything about me, and probably you are just waiting for me stop to be around. I can’t do it like you. I can’t. I fucking miss you every day. And just tell that this is thing of be strangers and you hating me is gonna last forever. Kills me even more. I finished as the bad guy to you. I’m gonna be just that ex that one day you are gonna be with other and you just are gonna mention all the bad things i did it to you. And i’m sorry, i swear i didn’t want to.
You would never believe me again i know, but at least i can tell you this words. I’ve this on my chest.
I love you, with the depth and passion that i have felt for no one else in this life i want nothing else in this life than to be with you to listen and watch you your beautiful voice your beauty to argue with u to laugh with u to show you thing and share things with you to explore your magnificent mind a minute away from you feels like a thousand years
I miss you D I miss you Pandi I miss you Bubu I miss you Nena
Everything feels incorrect without you, everything seems so gray without you, everything that i’m doing seems so lost. I know you don’t want anything, also you delete everything about us, and the TikTok you made it with the i wish find you in another life. I know that you never wants to find me again. I got your messages.
I still love you, idc how much bad you think about me, or how many hard feelings do you have ab me. I love you and i’m sorry.
I love you,
With love, F
Published on 13/10/2024